I think it was my 13th birthday. We were having dinner at County Line in Lubbock ( my favorite place to eat). My mom and dad gave… Read more “A pearl and diamond necklace”

When it is 1998 and your mom dies by suicide, you really don’t have much time to think. You definitely don’t have time to thoughtfully consider what… Read more “Cecilia J Bigbee 1953-1998”

Ever since my mom killed herself the day after my 19 birthday in 1998, my birthday has been complicated. I go from wanting to fully embrace the… Read more “My Birthday… Home”

Over a month ago I was looking through pictures and one of our 8-year-old son stuck out to me. I must admit at the time, I was… Read more “Hope… Help”

23 years ago I was almost 8 months into the journey of loosing my mom to suicide. If I am honest, I don’t really remember much from… Read more “Surviving… Thriving”

Friday afternoon, it was official that the person I have worked under for over two years is leaving. The news came right as I was leaving to… Read more “Being Real, Real Love”

Tomorrow will be 1,051,200 minutes since I was hired in my current positon as Director of Behavioral Health Services at Round Rock ISD. The day my hire… Read more “2 years, 24 months, 730 days”

Complicated grief… a phrase I have heard for years… especially as a counselor… yet I never really understood it until the last few months… until I started… Read more “Complicated Grief”

Every Christmas I can remember, there has always been this one special ornament. It is not the most expensive. It is not the prettiest. It is not… Read more “A little stocking, a lasting message”

This last week we spent the holiday at a wonderful lake house my sister found. We knew we needed to do something different since my stepmom’s death… Read more “We were just fishin’”